Tomorrow I again enter the world of working mommy.
Had our circumstances been different I would absolutely love nothing more than to stay home with my boys every single day until they were in full time school. Having morning netflix snuggles with B and afternoon naptime snuggles with L are two of my greatest joys in life. No longer will my days be filled with sand, cartoons and toddler laughter. In my new day time world it's all fluorescent lights, computer screens and the clicking of keyboards.
I do have quite a few ladies I'm looking forward to break times with. My job itself is not awful. But nothing will ever be better than my Monday meetings with a curly haired two year old or watching my baby discovering walking and climbing stairs.
Believe me! I know, that I'm not the only one. Many families are unable to live on one income. This doesn't make me feel better, it just makes me also sad for the other moms who wish to stay home.
Please don't preech how it's all about sacrifice to stay home. I've thoroughly looked into it, if I could I would. Unfortunately our past spending habits and hard times have put us far enough in the hole that one income just won't get us out quite yet.
So tomorrow I'll wake up, get ready, drop my boys off at day home, and rejoin the working world.
It will be an adjustment. I know I'll be fine. But having life exactly how you always wished it would be and then having to step away from that is difficult. I'm looking into some at home businesses which hopefully will help me earn more money to bring me closer to home with my loves. It's all one small step at a time.
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