When things happen they just fly at you all at once.
I know it's been a while since I've been on and soon you'll see why.
First let's update about my boys! Brycen is as smart as ever. At 2.5 he's a daredevil who loves to get into everything! Especially the things he shouldn't. He's funny and creative and makes me proud every day to be his mom. Lucas is now 8months(WHAT?!). Yep 8 moths ago and some I gave birth for the second time which means in less than 4 months my tiny love will be turning 1! He's not quite crawling but he twirls himself around and pulls himself around with his arms. He loves being on his tummy and still doesn't nap well. He loves eating big people food and is still breastfed(go us!).
Now for the rest of it.
My mom is a breast cancer survivor. On Good Friday she showed me a lump on her left side where she had had her mastectomy. I took her to the dr on Monday, she went for an ultrasound/core biopsy/mammogram on Wednesday then on Friday she had a chest X-ray. The following monday(2days ago) she got the call went in and it was confirmed to be cancer again. She now has a bone density scan this coming Friday and is on call for a CT scan. Once she has those she will have an appointment with the cross cancer institute to discuss what the next steps are. I am terrified. I'm scared to lose my mom. I'm only 26 and my babies aren't old enough to remember her yet. I am optimistic she will get through this again but that doesn't mean I'm not scared beyond belief.
Compounded with this news, my MIL called last Thursday and told us that an ultrasound she had done found a mass on her pancreas that the doctors are pretty certain is cancer. She has her ct scan tomorrow for confirmation.
Jodi's father passed away thanksgiving weekend 2012 of cancer. It's a lot to deal with.
My emotional/mental plate is completely full. I have been using exercise to help manage my stress and stay strong for the people in my life. I start a new program in about a week which will be a huge help for me.
Also on April 26 I started the 100 happy days challenge where you post a picture very day for 100 days of something that made you happy. In the next few months I know and expect to have a lot of lows. This challenge will keep me focused on all of the positive things in my life to keep my spirits up so I can reflect that on those close to me.
I have signed up for two runs this summer. Color me rad on July 5, 2014 and Mud Hero on August 10, 2014. I am so grateful to have these to look forward too.
My life has so many blessings and sorrorws right now I'm on a constant emotional roller coaster I don't know whether to cheer or cry. I am so grateful for my boys. My kids and my husband give me something every day to be thankful for. They are my sunshine that can brighten any day. I know that I have a lot of hard times ahead but with them surrounding me I know I an get through anything.
Being a mommy and wife are the absolute greatest things I have ever done. Nothing can compare to the love and joy my family brings me. Of course my babies stress me out sometimes, they're young and I'm not perfect. Absolutely my husband can drive me crazy like nobody else. But they're mine and I'm theirs.
So that's a recap of my current life situation. My posts will probably be as emotional as I am, big highs and deep lows. Thank you to anyone reading along.
Xoxo
Linda
